The first time that I had attracted an embodied man into my field changed me as a woman, mother and my views and beliefs of men and masculine energy.

This man was deeply into men’s work (I didn’t even know what men’s work was at that time nor did I know about polarity or embodiment). We instantly had a great connection and the depth was magnetic… I never had experienced a man hold such presence and grounded safety for me before. At one point we were so polarized I wasn’t able to think about anything because the pleasure in my body was so alive. He literally kept me there all day without even touching me 👉My purpose went out the door, and the heat of my energy and the grounded energy that he held for me was what magnetized m0ney into my field👈 Funnily enough (but not really), at one point all his unworthiness came up around receiving such love and receptivity from the feminine … And eventually, all my shit came up too � (Of course we attract people based on what still needs healing within us, so that we can grow and become higher versions of ourselves) One day we were in conversation and he had asked my opinion on something and I had responded to him with “You need to ‘x’ He paused for a moment and responded with, “When I ask your opinion or wisdom or something, would you mind not responding with ‘You need to’ or ‘you should?’ I feel less attraction towards you when you speak to me that way as it feels like you’re trying to be my mother and assert dominance” He then went on to say “I would much rather you respond with something like.. ‘Have you considered ‘x’ perspective’ or ‘even looking at ‘x’ from this angle?’” I will never forget the movement and shifts that happened in my mind, heart and body in that moment… That exact moment collapsed so much old programming in me and shifted my views on men, masculine energy and masculine leadership. On one hand I was mortified that he had told me that I sounded like his mother 😬 On the other hand I wanted to turn around and tell him to “f^ck off” and that I would say things the way that I wanted to say things” 👉My deeper fear being that he was trying to control me 👈 But instead of reacting, I paused and let myself feel everything - probably for the first time in a long time. The anxiety, the want to hide, 👉the shame👈 (which isn’t bad either), and the drop from ego to heart… Somewhere beneath my triggers, I knew that this man would not intentionally try to hurt me From the moment that we first connected I could feel his devotion to wanting to “get it right” and be a good man to me - not perfectly, but sincerely. So when it came time to respond 😅, I responded with “Sure, I can do that” He then went on to say to me, “I want to hear everything that you have to share with me, but it feels more inspiring for me to hear when you share from a place of not trying to penetrate me with it, but rather from a place of offering your wisdom” Fuck. This was the year that I started to learn the difference in penetrating your audience in your purpose with words, but also realizing that you can’t relate the same way in intimacy with a masculine man if you want polarity. For me, I realized there was no eros in trying to relate to a masculine man through correction, control or maternal energy. What opened desire, longing and polarity in my body instead was reverence, trust, softened openness and the willingness to descend from ego and love him from my knees. In Devotion,
Eleni 🌹